Location: LcK's house...huhu
OMGAWD!!! I thought you left me for some other ABDB stud...: Haa, sorry blog babe, couldn't help it.

Yup, the tides are turning, the winds are changing course and fate is definitely an enemy of mine now. Gawd, I can see you *sneer* at me from that [insert angelic choir here] place of yours, you think you are all great, don't you? Being fate and all, you cruel bootch you. Getting me all hyped up, feeling unsurpassed happiness and bliss and just when I am at the peak of euphoria, you take it all away from me...*broods*

COnclusion: WiFi at me house is gone, not sure for good or just temporarily, I feel very deprived...Pray for me people....haha....

I seriously need to blog, all these funny conversation at my house are going to waste....

Location: Wtth, where the assumptions that state w=R, t=o and h=m applies.
Where were you last night: At my friend's place, slept with each other...*lol*



10.21: Har har, nah, I'm still cursed. I'm just noting down the official time I woke up.


10.22: *sees 1 missed call from Papaness. Calls Papaness.* Didn't pick up...*back to sleep with friend on the same bed*

10.31: Papaness calls. Miri at 11. Huh. Wakes up friend. *kisses boyfriend's cheek* "Mornin babe..."



[............PSYCHE! Haha, you homophiliac freaks! *lol*]

[goes back home shortly after. Showered. Off to KB]

11.39: KB at Papaness.

Papaness: "Akhir jua Ebob ah...Banyak ni krita nie..."
Me: "Awu, ngaleh ku bagas dimalam ah, pukul 9 kali ku balik..."
*updates Papaness on schedule.*

20th: Up to UBD. Majlis Korban & Pengagihan Daging. MUST for all RESCOleans.
26th-29th: Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia visits Brunei. Order from HEP, RESCO=tourguide. Won't be coming for last two days.
28th-29th-30th: Sungai Akar & Museum, Kukup @ Tutong, Kuala Balai respectively.
Teambuilding for RESCOleans: Before open of semester.



{OFF TO MIRI}

• Went to Ngiukee. Bought new SPECS! Woohoo! 2inch. The brand I mean. It had a polarised clip-on and got a free cd CD bag! Ngaaaa.....


• It'll take about one hour till i get me hands on my new specs so Papaness and I went eating at the foodcourt.

Can you believe it?! It just takes ONE FREAKIN HOUR! It's like at least a few EONS here in Brunei, cos the specs has to go to Neptune and get approval from Zeus for it to fulfill its destiny, then it needs to go to some angel and learn about the world, which takes a long time, then it goes to you. *LMAO*

• Shop calls just after our lunch so there we went to take my spec. YAY!
• *wears new specs* LOL
• Browsed through Ngiukee. Papaness bought a cap.
• Left. Went to some other mall. Papaness is searching for a magnetic bracelet for him to play golf. Relieves injury of the wrist, so they say.
• *sakai meliat Miri*
• I went to this one shop which sells all these mineral and gemstone bracelets. Was plannin to buy a bracelet for me and browsed through the stuff when the lady at the counter came and spoke Chinese to me waving her hand at the bracelets....Aawwkkwaarrdd *Rushed to Dad*
• Papaness: "Mau minum?" Yayyy...Bought Peppermint Coffee Frappucino and Papaness Peppemint Tea at the Tea & Coffee stall below. My drink was in a usual plastic cylindrical container thingy and Papaness was in a cup. The seats were full so we sat at the ledge of the indoor fountain. I was jive with it but seeing Papaness sitting there at that damned ledge without a damned table because the damned seats were full really damned broke my heart. *Deems Miri a Damned City for 44 seconds*
• Next stop: Parkson. We had to buy stationeries for the Sisterhood.
• [On the way back] Papaness: "Eh, baik pulang membalikan barang pakai makan dorang ah."...Me: 'Bah, mana saja..." Went to Sugarbun.
• Off to NBD.
• Fell asleep.

5.32: Was already in KB on the way back to Papaness' house when I woke up.

Papaness: "Babah tarus ke opis ni ah. Jangan lupa barang dorang atu."
Me: "Bah"

[Took the things, started the car, waited for a while and drove home to Seria]

Some time shortly after: Went to Wisma Yakin, had to do some business...Huhu...Inda ku tahan gi, haha...

6.15: Hooommeeee!! Exchanged a few words with the High Priestess and Matriarch and went straight to my room.

7.00: WiFi!!!! Blogged my ass off.

9.44: I need a shower. Huhu...

Location: Private Sector.
Hey, you're goin to Bandar right? Try not to get your car smashed along woth you k? *cackles*: F*ck you.

7.30:

Some people praise you,
Some even worship you,
You could always be found
as the centre of poetry,
You even play a significant role in astrology,
They think you’re beautiful, of which you are sometimes,
Watching you
set may even make one’s day,
But to me,
You are just this big annoying
ball of fire,
Each and every morning, well almost,
There you are
stalking me, your rays harassing my exposed skin…
A pervert, that is what
you are, taking a liking in 19 year old boys…
You are…
The Sun.

7.45: Uh-huh…Yea, well, you guessed it. I’m in the kitchen. And more Indomee and cheesecake and coffee.

9.30: Frolics with cat. Very addictive. What to do? There is no Wifi yet…

10.50: Irons shirt for the trip. A Journey Up.

11.04: I really need to change my shampoo…Me hair is brittleish and falling...ZOMG!! I’m Going B.A.L.D!

11.05: Takes a shower. *grumbles at shampoo*

~~~*~~~

11.37: Got out of shower, msgd LcK to get ready. Replies and said to take my time cos she just cooked noodles blab la. So I took my time.

11.55: Went to Mom’s room grumbling about hair and uses her hair dryer. I ahet my hair. Mom agrees and intervened…

12.15: I look like someone who just got out of a saloon. New hairstyle though, thanks Mom! But I seriously look very the generic…it’s like you can find this style on the head of every one guy out of a random three at the Mall…Sticked with it anyways…Conclusion: Mom is a good stylist. Change hairstylist at Alan Salon.

12.20: Off to LcK.

!2.30: Fueled up car and off to pick Analisa.

[Off to Bandar around 1]

1.43: We’re Here!

2 something something: Meeting starts. Head Dude is very lame. Head Mistress seems agitated by lameness of Head Dude. Very unorganized. Feels darkness looming over RESCO. Dear God, help us….

3 something something: Off to Mall to eat wind and do some business. OMFG!! *You* drove! And it’s a big car! OMG! You cute little thing you! Aww…And I jealous because it’s a manual.

[Went to Mall, performed business, Cute Little Thing went back, continues to eat wind]

-got ATM card. Lady very the nice. I like you, Miss Baiduri Lady.

-bought hair spray, shampoo, new Nokia 6280 casing.

-Casing was very the toight, as in toight like a toiger. Too lazy to go up again and fix it to the shop…Note to self; fix the damned thing later.

-Silently waiting for Excapadation…

-Zombified around Mall…

-Excapade opens at 5.30…

-Saw the UBD shemale at Mall. Hair is straight now, and Shemale-er. Dyed it freaky blond. Slightly discussing. Seriously.

-Bought fudges of chocolates and cheese. Yum.

-Seriously ordering Ten Cha Soba…

-More zombification.

5.17: Disgusted about whether to use car or not to use car for Excapadation. Decision: Use the freaking car. It might rain.

5.25: Got a parking. Went to Excapade..

Wan: “You Fool! It Freakin Opens at 6, You Prick!”
Wan: Uhhhhh……*checks card* Oh, KB opens at 5.30. Eheh…
LcK: *decides going to Jaya Hyoermart*

Jaya Hypermart….

-Went to shop with candles and toys and bears and a 16 year old beetch insisting on seeing her Xmas present.

-Vained…U better post those pics…Mwahahaha…

Almost Six- Quick! Excapade!

[Heaven]

-new peeps at Excapade…Angels at work…

-ordered Ten Cha Soba, Wakame, Triple S, Mini California Special, Unagi Sandwich.

-Learned how Excapade makes those sweet egg pancakes from LcK….Layers….

1 hour later….

-feels very full. The hell with it, muahahaha…*eats more*

30 minutes…

-left alone. Ladies-Toilet. Called for bill.

-Feels very content and satisfied. Happy, yes? Yes.

-Off to Seria.

11.00: *types blog, yawns* ~~~*~~~


11.21: *realizes blog very summarized, yawns*

11.30: Sleep, no? Yes! What? Sleep.///Yes? Yes. Papai.

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I wonder where you are right now…

Location: Perumahan Rakyat Jati Seria
Why is your speaker facing the wall: To give a ‘surround’ effect. Ahawhaw..

7.17: I am the Priest of Apollo! God of the Sun and…*Yawn*..Divinati…*zzzzz*

9.10: Wan wakes up officially. Goes to the kitchen, finds fritters, boils 2 eggs, Mom wakes soon after. Yay. The Head Triad of the House are having breakfast together.

Meeting No.: 100 + n, where n is any suitable number, for all real values of n.
Attendants:-Patriarch In-Training…Dato’ Paduka Seri Maharaja Laila Wijaya Wan
-High Priestess of the Immaculate Teachings…Her Holiness Pg. Hjh. Maimun
-Matriarch of the House…Orang Mahu Kaya-Kaya Datin Rashidah
Topic of Convention: Defecation and Cats.

HP: “Lai, karang stret kan krita mu atu aku kan menyuci lantai bagas kucing bekelaie dimalam ah”
M: “Kenapa? Beria dorang kah? Ada ku mendangar kucing kelaie dimalam.”
HP: “Awuu, abis bejurit taie ucing dibawah ah. Lapas alai mindah kritanya karang baru ku menyuci.”
P: *Thinking of situation. Why do cats defecate when fighting?* “Bah…”

End of Convention.

Summary: Cats defecate when fighting.

-[Wan’s Theory of Defecating Cats.]-

Theory 1: Cats just feel like it when they fight.

Theory 2: They feel it’s their destiny and hence defecate.

Theory 3: The Earth is round, and the ruling planet of Taurus is Neptune.

Theory 4: Being descendants of the Phylum Chordata, their mindwork may as well be, even infinitesimal, similar to Homo Sapiens. Just as the young Homo Sapiens urinate involuntarily out of fear when put under certain conditions, the felines tend to defecate when they are in fear.

[The Ruling Heads of the House continues to have breakfast]

10.35: Moved car so the High Priestess could perform the necessary purification rituals.

[Spent time on music and manga, ever so trying hard to contain sushi craving]

1.13pm: Tidies up room, showers.

1.59pm: Had a change of clothes to go to Supasave and realized I was putting on a free striptease for anyone fortunate to see this young 19 year old boy through his half-open window. *LMAO*

2.30pm: Off to Supasave and KB. Spent much of my time eating my Cadbury Peppermint Chocolate…And I bought the cheesecake I have so long desired (about 4 months) and it’s now happily thawing itself in the fridge.

3.56pm: Me back go out, yes? Yes. Didn’t cross any incidents that could confer upon me fatality. So yay. *imaginatively hops around room*

4.00pm: Had sambal and cucumber slices and exchanged a few words with the High Priestess.

4.04pm: WiFi is still not on. I have a bad feeling about this…

4.21pm: Rained. Gave myself a rest and laid on my Yoga mat.

[Further zombifying around the house ensued]

7.00pm: Watched Stomp the Yard with The Familyhood.

8.10pm: ZOMG! I can go ONLINE!!! *reads blog* ZOMG!!! I feel LOVEDDD!!!! Thanx for the taggies!!! Feels very warm n fuzzy inside huhuhu....

8.18pm: *reads yesterdays blog for no reason* Hmm, I forgot the word head..Was wishin for an angel to come and turn my head backwards...Now I don;t though....*Hyper from taggies*

9.20pm: Watched Pocong 2 with the Familyhood. Was halway finished whenI came to the living room.

Indon chick from movie: "Maaf ya Bu, tapi saya butuh sangat informasi ini..."
Mom: "Hahah, Butuh tah nya lagi, sudah jua pocong!"
*room filled with laughter*

9.59pm: Think it's time to call it yet another day. I bid ye farewell, readers. Till next time.

Location: Me room.
Mood: Bored. Have a feeling I'd be like this the whole day long. Wish I had an imaginary friend...

7.15: Hail Me, World! For I am the Lord of Dawn!

7.30: Mamam Mi Sedap sama Daging Sweet & Sour.

8.07: Listening to music. Arbintra By Rurutia Rocks!

9.00: YAYY! WiFi is on! *E.Vyle Cackle*

10.00: Reminiscing on yesterday....Aha, didn't blog. Came back late from JP, around 12.04 huhu. Saw a car on flames on my way back, the rest of the journey was freaky...Hmm...Oh well, made it back safe. Thank God. Thanx Peeps for the Outinh k? Seeing forward to another one soon huhu...I'll just read you peeps punya blog when I want to remember this ehe...Very the siuk, yes? Yes! Good.

10.45: Frolicked with cat. Very Fun. Must do Again.

11.22: ……………..ade…

Hmm? *gets back to music*

…..paade…………

Huh? Who dat?

…………..caapaaadeee…

Who dat?! Why you dis?

…..xccaapaaadeee…..

Huh? Wha…what are you? Please…go away…

..Exxcaapaaadeee…..

Huh….Excapade..N..no..I can’t..please, go way. I beg of you! *cowers in a dark corner*

EXXCAAPAADEE!!!!

No! Please, no! Go away! I can’t! I CAN’T! Get away from me!!

SSUUUUSSSSHHH!!!!!!!

NO! *puts wallet in the middle of both palms and prayed*

Spirit of Budgeting and Finance, I invoke Thee!
Protect me from unholy Evil
Bequeath upon me Thy light and benevolence
I beseech Thee!

*Wallet glows with white light*

NOOOOOO!!!! SUSHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! *poof*

Oh my, what just happened…Oh well…*goes back to music*

[Blogger is suffering from severe sushi deprivation and is hallucinating badly]

11.48: Want half-boiled eggs. Boils 2 eggs.

11.54: Unf*cks f*cked-up room.

11.56: *goes to the kitchen and found eggs pretty much boiled n hard*

Mom: “Nah. Hahah. Masak talurnya ah.”

Grandmoher: “Mana inda alai atu ditinggalnya.”

Me: *grumbles*

12.04: Continues unf*cking f*cked-up room.

12.46: F*ucked-upness of room reduced to 31%. Bathed room with purifying sunlight. Took a shower.

13.58: WiFi gone. Misery takes over. Life being drained.

14.00: Oh Meri Gawrd He! It’s On Again! Ave~

14.30: Tried Lee's polo on. I think I'd loo shmexier if I don't have extra blubber...Bowh, apakan...Thanks Lee! I don't really have that much green in my wardrobe, or lemarih, or whatever...

14.59: I am thinking about sushi again…

*not long after...Wan starts talking to himself*

Wan: “Hey prick.”
Wan: “Oh, helew bitch”
Wan: “A boring day, isn’t it?”
Wan: “Ahaa…I definitely agree.”
Wan: “Going round KB seems like such a nice idea now, doncha think?
Wan: “Ooh, Ooh! We could go round Mumong and maybe we can see something interesting. *grins*”
Wan: “Ooh, good idea! Been a long time since we’ve seen em, ne?”
Wan: “I agree. You think that person is smart enough to enter UBD next year?”
Wan: “That’s cruel, you know. It is a sad fact though. The name will be the first I’d search for when I can get my hands on that list…*eyes gleam evilly and rubs hands together*”

15.12: ZOMG!!!! My hard disk fell! But it's ok...Or is it? Jeng jeng jeng...

15.15: Off to KB

17.00: I'm Baaacccckkk!!! Huhu. Now let's see what happened...

- wanted to go to Supasave and buy the ready made fridge cheesecake thing in a box, but I was wearing just my shorts and a old skool t-shirt...commando g tue, nda jua bisai *lol*

- Wan: "You think those were the brothers?"
Wan: "Most probably. They did come out from that house, ne~~.."
Wan: "Lets give em a codename. I propose Y. Huhu.."
Wan: "I propose 'Sigma', ahaha..."
Wan: "Don't you think Y is more practical?"
Wan: "Ooh, you are very the right!"
Wan: "You did see Y's car right?"
Wan: "Uh-huh. But I don't see the Mazda Y was in a few months ago..."
Wan: "Maybe it wasn't Y. Sure really did look like Y though. Hmm...Oh well, let's just hope Y is smart enough to go to UBD next year."
Wan: "Yes! This project of ours has been on hiatus for far too long."
Wan & Wan: *Cackles vehemently evilly*

- Skipped Death again..Booyaa...Haha. Fell asleep during driving...

- I don't think anyone can get lost in KB..huhu...Seriously...

- My windshield is dirty.

- My Nokia 6280 charges faster in the car than with the usual charger I use at home.

- The Earth is round, just as the Sphinx is not a rat.

- All in all, it was a nice drive. Very calming. Huhu...

18.00: Too tired for yoga. Did push-ups and sit-ups instead. I seriously need a gym partner. Anyone up for it? Huhu...Just once a week to the gym would be nice...

19.44: I think I'll retire early today so I won't try to search for food. {takes a shower}

20.56: Bored. Just simply bored. Just wished an angel would descend down to my room and turn my 180 degres to the back with a very gratifying snap. That would be interesting. I think i should hire an outing partner. Bowh. haha...

21.00: I'll just stop here and call it a day. Tag me k, so I feel lurved...Huuhuu...Ok, papai!

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It's there again. But not as strong.I know it'll come back. I wonder what will happen tomorrow...Picked up my phone, but placed it back. Just didn't dare to...

Location: In my inner sanctum, on Word…
Why is your table a mess?: Blame it on the stars, I was born lazy.
Oh, new format?: I like new things…

5.35am: OMG! Count the sheeps! Quick, Quick! *ZzZzZzZz*…Whew…*plays with Little Red Roasted Duck in Dreamland…*

7.30am: I think I should just embrace my destiny…O Fate, what art thou thinking? So I listened to music I just got last nite from LcK and read mangas…*smirks* I want mooree~~~…

9.00am: Kitchen. Indomee. Scrambled Eggs. Tea. Coffee. Ate happily.

9.24am: Discontent, Dissatisfied. More Indomee? Nah…Settled on two half boiled eggs.

9.32am: OM GAWD! My eggs! Haaa….Oh well…Settled on three-quarter boiled eggs and kicap manis.

9.45am: *Feels guilty for not washing dishes*…

Me: “Ke mana kita Ma?”
Grandmother: “Ah, ni kan membayar aing, lampu...(etc)”
Me: “Owh..Bah”

9.56am: Realised my English is gradually deteriorating all of the sudden. Note to self, start reading books! Oh yeah, I washed the dishes…(^.^)

10.00am: My laptop kept on detecting linksys, but its very low…It does that every once in a while, but I never really bothered. But today was different…So I went hunting!

------------THE HUNT BEGINS!!-----------

I was unsure at first. Would I really find what I am looking for? Heavens, my poor heart was beating ever so rapidly just simply out of this anticipation. I could feel the adrenaline rush within me. My head was constantly filled with the ideas of what I am capable of doing if I find it, it was so fast a rush I felt dizzy and nauseous but euphoric at the same time…

Here I was in my second sibling’s room. Was I really seeing what I’m seeing? It…it got stronger, my Dear God! Is it here? It has to be here! It just has to be! I can feel it! But where? I treaded the whole room, it must be hidden somewhere. A place not all could find, a place pristine and clandestine in nature. The corner? So on I went. It got stronger! As if I could feel it pulsating! Oh what joy! I made my way to that corner, faster with each step…and it…was gone…

I…I was filled with grief. Dissappointed. I was broken. This pain…it feels like a thousand shatter of glasses running through the vessels in my heart...

No, NO! This cannot be! It was never a hallucination; I utterly refuse to believe it is not here. I must persist, yes, persistence would lead me to virtue! Persevere my heart! We *will* find it! I searched the room again, coming out of that damned corner with this new found strength. Determination overwhelms me, covering my soul with this light that will shine my way to it. Where are you, my Holy Grail…

There I was in the middle of this place…and then there it was, as strong as ever. Oh, I am in euphoria. This blissful feeling. What jubilation! I found it, Eureeka! Oh I am not ready for this. What…what should I do? Owh, oohh…I feel nauseous again, oh my…*faints*


-----FIN------

10.15am: Quest completed. I found it alright. In my bro’s room,18Mbps the highest as yet. Surfing Spree! Woohoo!

11.00am: Went to the kitchen for a glass of tea and my lil sister asked me if I could lull the cat to sleep. “Abg Ibob mau tidurkan ia?”..”Bah..” So I took the pitifully-named poorlittle thing to my arms went to my room duduk dapan mija menidurkan ia.

11.02am: Aww, it did the cutest little act! I was busily scratching it to sleep when it stretched and then rested its paw and head on my chest…Ooh, sucha cute little thing…

11.04am: The damned cat didn’t want to sleep.

11.05am: It climbed out of my grasp and started rummaging through my table of messiness and chaos. Went back to surfing…

11.27am: Okay I almost made a fatal hole on my back and hence kill myself. The freakin extension was freakinly sitting behind my freakin back (I’m sitting on the floor with my laptop up on a chair. In my bro’s room) and my freakin Nokia charger was plugged on and stood very the freakin erectly, aha…So I was trying to lie down, remaining oblivious, and almost killed myself…

11.35am: “I solemnly declare that I will not eat again for at least 2 hours before Yoga this noon.”

11.38am: *heats up curry and puts in more sugar…*…What? I’m just human…*cackles*

12.08pm: Vained…zomg…

1.03pm: Haha, I almost screwed up my blog very the royally…Wooh…Everything is okay now…Breathe, Wan, breathe…

3.30pm: -{Took a shower}-

[Spent the time fixing my Friendster a bit, uploading songs for this blog, and doing other nonsense]

4.00pm: Y.O.G.A!! Honoring the light that is within me…Ommm…

5.30pm: Died.

6.30pm: Resurrection. Surf Time!

7.30pm: Ahaa..spent the time screwin my Friendster again, found good wallpapers and changed a few colours then wanted to view it. My browser couldn't show it. Haa...I thought I really screwed the thing but I tried viewin other profs and the same thing happened. Thank goodness...

7.58pm: Hey! Its ok now! woohoo.....

9.36pm: Finally! I have finished updating my FS peeps, check it out if you want...

9.37pm: I think I'll just end it here for now. Tag me Ok?
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I just wish I could see you again…Just one more time…I forgot one thing, something I didn’t mention before, the CDs…Now I have a pair of shoes, a ticket, fond memories and the CDs…Makes me smile when I remember the movie we watched, and that was when I started taking an interest in Korean movies…*laughs* We never really finished Full House, did we? Sometimes I ask why do I even bother writing this, then I remind myself those were so great a time I wouldn’t want to forget…You revealed to me so many things, so precious I’d cherish them forever…

Location: LcK's
Excuse me, but why are you on her laptop instead of yours?: My laptop couldn't detect her wifi for some reason, so I'm using her laptop....
Ooh, what's that?: Oh, its Blueberry Cheesecake from Mum's!

Woke up early, as usual...*sighs*...what am I going to do with myself...Anyway, went straight to the kitchen and found french fries, hard as rocks...My grandmother fried it again (leftovers from yesterday). Hmm...Then I went to the living room and played with Tompok...seriously...its a pitiful name...and spent much of my morning playing with her, gradually tidying up my room a bit, accompanied my mother to buy some potatoes, ate Mom's chicken curry (the only curry I approve of eating without a second thought) and was busy chomping through a piece of chicken when I remembered what day it was, ahaa...There was less than an hour before prayer, so I took a shower then got ready...

If you have the chance to visit Seria and pray here at the big mosque, take note of the Imam...His voice has the power to calm and purify you when he starts reciting...Seriously...How can I describe it....it's like you can feel a blast of warm aura emanating from him when he starts a Surah...Ooohh..

Went straight home right after, and texted LcK if she wanted to accompany me to Mum's and told her I'd be there in a while...I was packing my laptop when the side of my vision caught a glance at my room mirror and looked, only to realise my hair was a complete mess, more chaotic than usual...Then I made a resolution; find a hairstyle that suits me this very day...So on I went treading through a journey of sticky hair mud and a multitude of combs.

And I failed, and declared today to be A Bad Hair Day...

And I think I spent almost an hour and made LcK wait...bowh..Oh well..

Picked LcK up and to KB we went. I think I boyght fdar too much just for myself...what was it..Blueberry Cheesecake, Chicken Floss Bun, Chicken Sau Pau, Chicken Pie and an Apple Danish...huhuhu...Spent the whole of my afternoon here at LcK's, watched animes, some stupid vids on Youtube..*laughs*..You really should check this out, Vanilla Sky Umbrella...Its Rihanna's parody to Umbrella...

Want to know what else we did? Haa...we V.A.I.N.E.D~~~...Ahaa...Never knew vaining could be so much fun huhu..I think she'll post some of em on her blog so go thre..

Ooh, its almost nine..Gtg peeps...

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I wonder what happened in me...Something must have happened, I don't think about it as much as the usual today. But I know it's still there, moving on seems so impossible now...maybe this hope still hasn't died yet, and I ask myself will it ever do so...That ticket, the sentimental value it holds, whenever I see it..there is like a flood of memories overwhelming me...And this aching void gnaws deeper when it does...I wonder if this will ever end...

Location: Home, in the comfort of my own little sanctum…
Where are you typing this?: Word..
Why?: Felt like it..
Btw, what’s your aim for next semester?: To look healthy, fit and yummy! *laughs*

I didn't blog yesterday, but you ought to know why *grins*. But today was different, I just had to, despite my B-mob credit...Hmm, let me recap on what I did…[insert time warp sound effect here]

I think I woke up quite early today, and then realized it was early so I went back to sleep again, and I think I did this twice and finally woke up on 8:30, or 7:30…*sigh*..Why can’t I just be normal and wake up when its almost nighttime the next day like all the others do…After that, the first thing I did was walk to the kitchen to hunt for food…Can; help it, it’s a morning ritual to holy to deny…*grins* Hmm, I wonder if I’ve brushed my teeth yet…Oh well…Looked around the dining table (it’s not that big, mind you, just a tad smaller than 1 squared meter. But you never know what you might miss!) and guess what I found…well, you don’t have to bother guessing, because I’d inevitably tell you…MURTABAKS! Haa…And judging from the gravy, its from WYWY…Yeah, you know what happened next…Lets just skip that part…

After a nice meal, I finally woke up…and realized I’m not in the hostel. Which means, my friends wouldn’t be around…Then I got depressed…and felt all hungry again. Well, I was never full from the start *lol*…It’s like a gnawing, eerie void in me, sucking everything in until what’s left is just this saddening lethargic silence…which makes me sleepy, hence the term. I miss you peeps…I really can’t wait to see you guys again…Come to think of it, I was never in the holiday mood to begin with, ever since I got back, and I should logically with respect to all that is normal feel quite happy and relieved, right? Hmm, I really miss the hostel…

I was on my laptop around 8:30, which means I woke up at 7:30, when I thought of Excapade…But I shoved it off thinking of how mush I have left in my account and in my wallet…So I took out the pc game I bought yesterday – Fable. The Lost Chapters and Dawn of Magic – and tried to install them. DOM didn’t work because my freaking graphics card couldn’t freaking support the freaking shaders or whatever of the freaking game. Motherhumper….The I tried installing the other one, well yeah, it worked. Otherwise I’d be fuming and depressed…It’s the normal fantasy game but better, relatively. Its about a boy who dreams of becoming a hero, sometimes a wizard and other times a villain, unaware of what destiny ahs in store for the poor freak. Every actions you make determines your alignment and would ultimately affect the ending bla bla bla…All in all, its fun.

Excapade came back, with one whole wave of ideas. I was thinking of going to a bakery (Mum’s) and buy something with cheese, go Excapading, jogging, go to Bandar, go to Tutong’s Soon Lee, and do Yoga. It was around 11:15 I think when I messaged LcK saying I was bored and hungry, because I was bored and hungry…And she pointed out that I’m all yper when I’m bored and hungry, judging from my message, which started with me shouting out her name…Hmm…So I proposed Excapading and the Wifi-ing..She wanted to stay at home and have lunch because apparently her mother was cooking her favourite meal, I forgot to ask what…I looked out of my room and noticed my mother was still sleeping…*blank* Then I felt like tidying up my room simply because it was the perfect image of chaos. And then I decided to go to Mum’s and go treat myself with cheese before I start tidying up my room. Just when I was about to finally decide to go, the Spirit of Financing and Budgeting bellowed above my head the amount of money I currently possess and the length of this holiday…So I didn’t go…And when I started to neaten up my room and open a plastic bag that was on the floor, it came to me…Where the heck am I going to put all of this stuff if I take it out? So I did the math and calculated that my room is relatively better-looking with all the things still in pitiful plastic bags rather than being somewhere else that’ll downgrade my room to something similar to the fiery pits of Hell..I surrendered and did Yoga instead…And I have never felt so proud…Oh yeah, I asked Lck to accompany me to jog later on…So I still had time to kill before jogging time (5pm) and played Fable…Yeah yeah, I won’t elaborate on this…This blog is long as it already is now…

Played for an hour or so, got tired, laid my pillow on my Yoga mat still on the floor, pastu ampai-ampai atas lantai, beulit-ulit sama paluk ku tersayang…*glows for no reason* I think I took a shower right after Yoga then I went ‘ampai-ampai atas lantai’. Then I:- played Tekken with my sisters (Hwoarang is still so cool, and so is Jin); virtually cleaned my laptop; cleared up my table a bit; transferred all my songs, pics, and vids to my *Brand New SATA 120GB Prezmate Hard Disk* (which reaped $129 out of me); charged my very the fake iPod Shuffle; roamed around the house like a ghost; jumped around with the family cat (likes to paw and bite people, and look cute at the same time, and eats custard pie…and according to my mother, she’ll lick the custard off first then eat the crust, and is called Tompok, just like any other cat that has crossed path with my mother); tried watching 30 Days of Night, got bored, and ended up scanning through the movie…*lmao* And then it was almost time to jog. Did a bit of Yoga again to warm-up and then drove to pick up LcK.

OGDC, Seria – The sky looked dull and gloomy, just the way I like it…Bad for jogging though. Walked for one lap then I jogged, all the time listening to my infinitely fake Shuffle (you might notice I am actually agitated by my Shuffle, because the left Next button doesn’t work). Did approximately five laps, with two laps of jogging..I think…And then it rained (5:45pm approx)…*sigh* I recall saying to LcK, “my eyes did more workout then my legs…” *laughs* It was true though….Told her I’d be coming over her house to wifi later on the way sending her back…

Hoommee….I rested, rested and rested. And then I died. Until it was 8:30 and I took a nice 20 mnute shower. I was drying myself when I noticed the firmness of my tummy, so allow me digress a bit…’Palmolive Thermal Spa Shower Creme with Seaweed Extract, Really Firms Up Your Skin in just 2 Weeks!’

I felt tired still and texted LcK I won’t be coming after all, and told her I’m craving for chocolate for no reason, and I really was…So I drove to shop for chocolates, like the glutton I am. Ended up buying Green Tea (which tastes like detergent), Mars - simply because it’s the next best thing, One Whole Big Bar of Cadbury Dairy Milk, and a box Vegeta Fiber Life so I could live longer…Oh yeah, you know of the vent in Seria? The one that spews fire? It’s the BSP thing near BSP…So yeah, it was flaring very the significantly, and it kinda lighted the whole dark sky with an eerie, orange glow…The first word that came to my mind was ‘Perdition’..hmm.,Anyway, when I parked and got out of my car, the flame was now even bigger and it was pulsating…Scary…Then, right after shopping, it rained…and the fire was out…*Divine Mercy*…

Went back home and almost immediately started typing off today…And here I am…Yay, ~FIN~

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It still bothers me, sometimes it aches, other times it smothers me. All that is left is a pair of shoes, a ticket and these fond memories…It agitates me as to why I still feel all this, and sometimes I find myself filled with regret. All I can do now is persevere and live on…I do feel a bit warmer, a bit of the old burden, one of the two, has been lifted, just because of a few small things that has managed to find a way to put a pure smile on this face, ever so feigning happiness…I beseech Thee, heal me…

Okay, I'm really sorry...whoever you are..you too LcK...I'm only being me, the Divine Procrastinator...*glows*...I still can't find a stable internet connection yet, and if you see short posts, its mean what? Thats mean I'm posting with my phone..So here goes..



Location: LcK's house...

Why?!: Abusing her wifi...bowh...And I really need to blog...



Just got back from UBD, now in Seria, still in my black cara melayu...Hmm...Let me first intro you to something a bit..The residential college of UBD has an organisation of committees made of hostelites only...It generally consists of the Head Peeps, one from the boys and one from the girls; the Pengerusi(Head Dude and Head Lady) of RESCO, Secretariat and the Money Keeper (RESCO is the name of the organisation)...and a few other Somewhat Equally Important Peeps; The Bureaus. And I just got appointed as the Head of the Bureau of Photography and Publicity last night, hard to say what I felt actually...But yeah, I accepted...It was a last minutev thing, and many other bureaus were empty because they can't find replacements yet...I'm starting to think its some sort of a sign that says something that is definitely not in the favour of the person I'm talking about, and I'm talking about the Head Dude...Bowh...Oh well, I still have a few semesters to find out...Aanyway, the Dissolving of the Old RESCO and Appointment of the New RESCO Ceremony (sounds very archaic eh?..heheh) was held very humbly and mediocrely at the Female Audi...And all preparations were made by RESCO herself, even the certificates of appreciation, ketters of appointment, refreshments bla bla bla...I don't know, but it just doesn't seem right...Refreshments I can accept...But...Oh well...Sometimes I wonder if this RESCO is even a part of UBD, specifically referring to Student Welfare....It's like we're left alone..

If you look at the bright side though, we would learn so many things, all with just our bare hands...haa...Still have lots of time to figure this out...



Well, that's one thing...



Another thing is...Its the HOLIDAYS..And I'm already starting to decay out of boredom...



Oh yeah, we had some sort of a briefing by BIOCOP; Brunei's Wildlife Conservation Thing (I'm a member) around 2pm at UBD today, a few hours before the RESCO function (7.30pm). There is going to be an exhibiton next year around May and we need to prepare around now-ish..*sighs*...Basically we were divided into three groups, the Kerangas Group, Mangrove and the Mixed Dipterocrap Forest Group (all those weird names are just the types of forest you can d=find in this country). Our task is to collect leaves and twigs and branches and other whatnots for our booth (oh yeah, I'm in MDF along with Najib, Mun and some guy named Andrey). We are to make a big model of a Tristania tree, a tree you can usually find in MDF (google it up if you want). Our main goal is to make our booth feel like a real forest, with sounds of ghostly cicadas and all of those other eerie forest sounds at night...Yup, we will be going to a forest at night and record those sounds...Huhu...I am so looking forward to this....

It ended around 3-ish and we were supposed to go swimming, (Jiman, Mus, Is, me) and I was messaged by the new Head Dude to go and help out preparing for the function and be at the Female Audi at 4...And down went my plan on swimming...*sighs heavily*

So I went there and did a bit of typing and cutting and searching for names and pasting them on envelopes and all the other things you do when you are preparing for a function such as this..haha...

I had to go back to the hostel and get ready in my friend's room. I do have to admit I was quite nervous. Then we went to the ceremony. all formal and dull just like any other formal and dull ceremonies. After the ceremony was the fun part, Cam W.H.O.R.E.s in Action!!!! Sorry, I don't have any good pics to upload...

Nothing much after that, and went back, and here I am blogging...And I need to go home...And I think I just blogged too much...

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Too much has happened quite recently, and sometimes I find myself breaking down...Such a sad life...I still have to move on though...The two are still on my mind, being the core of these disturbances I'm currently persevering through. Heaven help me...One to do with reality and the other, insecurity.

Its not really a surprise how reality can be so cruel, but when it slaps you right on the face with cold, hard facts..you start to feel how cruel it can really be...These memories I hold, on rather cling on, pains me and yet I still won't let go...Sometimes I ponder onto myself and ask why...

Insecurity. Quite a perfect word to describe this other thing of me. I never really liked sharing, simply because of trust...Its hard for me to give it away...Tried to change and gave it, and I regret...It is utterly depressing you see, to share and trust someone and all you get back are just...something you shouldn't logically and morally get back. Do you know how severe peer pressure can be? Its when you start telling others secrets you shouldn't be telling just to be close to that person your telling. Its like you feel content and warm and fuzzy because you have shared something important, and you feel your friendship becomes stronger just because you now have something only you and that person knows and have something to talk about when no one is around. I know, its confusing, but I don't know how else to put it..ANd I'm getting wuite specific, of which I shouldn't be if I reach this part..Oh well..I think it's yime to get those walls back up again...

Okay...I'm Back...And this is especially for you LcK...An entire post dedicated to you...Haha..I know, I'm the perfect image of a procrastinator...

Dear LcK,
I feel horrible. Haha. I need a counselling session.

Ahaa...

Anyway, I was actually planning to make a new blog and signed up...only to find this thing still exist. Making a new one was too much of a hassle so I'm sticking with this...So let's get on with this...And I'm making this thing short for now...time is currently not on my side...

Location: Coffee Zone
Smell: Very ciggarettey
How I feel: I feel very I don't know what...seriously, it's an amalgamy of too many things...and I'm not even sure if that word exists...

Woke up relatively quite late today (around 7 something something) in Mus' room, with Najib on the floor and me on the bed...And here were three people in the room..So do the math..Haha
Felt very tired, agitated, *bangas*, *mihir, *kamah*, and hungry...like always. And like always, it lasted only for a few minutes...Haha...And then what happened after escapes me..Haha

And then...
- went back to my room
- went to Jiman's room...yayy..Warcraft..
- took a very unsatisfying shower
- played warcraft
- i hate Warcraft
- Kachik came in...and we talked about very serious matters...Oohh
- Went to the Mall and checked my bank account
- It CAME OUT!!!
- Now otw to excapade....

And now I'm in a rush and i feel very disoriented...as reflected by this blog...

It was last two days ago when we had our farewell party for those OGDCeans who have left and are going to leave...Kinda sad, with the speeches and all...Oh well, that's life folks!

This place is really interesting...It's like OGDC enters a new era as a new batch of new peeps come. As time goes by, you get this amalgamation of creativity and simply flat out 'Difference' in almost everything. It's fun and intriguing, don't you think? How people can control the atmosphere just by being them, all on their own, in their own rights, and you get another thing when people are with other people...But some things never change here...

Never, Ever...will you find people who are normal with a stable state of mind....Hahaha...

There is always this thing that still keeps us here despite the emotional and physical stress...It is this thing that drive ourselves to go to WYWY after work, despite the tiredness, and talk and eat and talk again on of all that is nonsense and all that is not. It is also this...thing...that reminds us of our other peeps to bring along to Bandar and hang out, despite the time being after payday or not...

It is also this thing that drags me into a small dark corner of dilemma and frustration, spiralling into a saddening world of sadness...

Because I will be leaving soon...

Well...At least I hope I'll be leaving soon...I'll have to wait for that darn list...

Seriously, no matter how much I try to sound and look okay, but I just can't. The nervousness and the nagging questions keeps overwhelming me. What would I do if I don't get my Degree? How in God's name am I to go out with just an A level qualification in my hands? Haha....I'm going crazy....I sound like some character from a book...It's so...typical....But it's happening! Gawd...

I know!! I know.....I'm a procrastinating prick...

It's just that I'm stressed about Uni and all that my mind is blocked...seriously....Dear God.....

It feels horrible...

It's like there's this heavy, heaving thing in my chest. And I'm becoming even loonier than usual in my office....And I tend to zombify here and there quite frequently lately....

Oh my....

This was the DAY!!!! And I haven't packed my things....Was supposed to pack last night....Felt all energized after my shower and saw it was already 9.05 pm...What the hell...Sleepy time! And I ended up having this day only left to pack....

Really felt like I wanted to bounce all over OGDC when I got there....Was really anticipating UBD Sci & Tech....We were expecting a visit from some department around 12 pm and everyone was wanting to go out at lunchtime; Tessa had to go home to pack (me too), Ayu had to go somewhere, Zul was goin to KB for lunch, ending up with no one left to man the Hall..So we acted like true OGDCeans and planned who goes out first...Me...

Ayu and me felt hungry so we went to Ideal and we ordered cappucino and fries...Found a cute little kitten when we were waiting and it was basking in the sun. Such an adorable little thing...Amd we found out later it had flu...

Went back to the Hall, was busy happily eating when Liza called saying the visit was cancelled...Woohoo...

Went back home around 11 (as planned whenthe visit was still on...*sigh*) and packed...I think I got more professional in packing for events because I did it in just like half an hour...Found some fried rice in the kirchen and my Grandmothe cooked some curry beef...Been a long time since I had kuch at home....Felt like a slice of heaven....

I rechecked my things, kissed Gandma goodbye (I know...I'm such a aweet thing) said bye to my siblings and went back to OGDC, contemplating all the way back on whether I should buy that Nivea Face Matte Cream or not....And got o OGDC empty handed....

The day went smoothly, got a few calls and messages from my peeps in Bandar asking to bring along a few things. Prepared this, photocopied that...And we were all set for Bandar!

It was like nearly 4, the Time, when Tessa, G-Jul and me realised we forgot our half-our-lives pillows....

And we waited...

And waited...

And waited...

And it was 4.10....

And waited....And ended up in the theatre buying food when the van arrived...WOOOHHOOO!!!!

So we loaded the van and was on our way to Bandar!!! Here was what happened in the van...

- I ate the maltesers I bought just a few minutes after boarding
- Felt melancholic so I kept quiet and contemplated on my life like a highly philosophical creature...
- Drank my Fruit Tea a good 15-20 minutes after leaving OGDC
- Decided to listen to music on my laptop so I did...
- I fell asleep...
- Next thinh I knew we were close....But had to stop somewhere becaiuse the peeps of the van needed to go to the Place Where People Go When They Need To Pee...
- Was on our way again and Harry's Simple Small Motor-Powered Shake Table ( a component necessary for our activity during the Week) fell off the seat and broke a few things...Oh dear...
- And Poof! We were in Holiday Lodge.
- Met the People of he First Batch, loaded their things into the van while we unloaded our things to check in to our rooms...
- Took Pics like the Cam Whores we OGDCeans are and said goodbye to the peeps...And Hello Life in Holiday Lodge for 4 Days!

Woke up bla bla bla....Nothing unusual today....

OGDC was half a ghost town, most of us were up in Bandar....And we here are still waiting for our turn...Went to man the exhibition hall, and it was freaking cold as usual....I was like zombie-ing here and there, the day was practically more than boring...Still thinking of what awaits me in UBD...And the things I should be bringing....

It was almost 4 when G-Jul called saying Tessa and he wanted to go to Excapade...Oh well...I still can afford it so what the heck...Too bad Ali can't join since he has to go to Bandar...Parted be, parted be...

On the way to Excapade, it was literally raining cats and dogs...in a metaphorical manner of course...Was kinda scary...

Got to Excapade and I actually toned down on what I ordered....Such a miracle...

Hmm, weirdly enough...It turned out to be sucj a boring day....Oh well...

Yeah...I know...Been a long time since I updated....Spank me as hard as you want....

Hmm, when did I last blogged...Oh yeah...

Remember about my off day on Monday? Well, to hell with it. Was sleeping soundly for like until 10 am and the next thing I remember I was in OGDC, and then POOF, I was in UBD Bandar stabbing hooks through brown panels so I could hang Global Warming posters....So yeah....And for those of you who has a slow brain....I worked on my day off...And guess what, that was my nly day off left last month, June...Didn't claim it though, and in all reality I ended up having just a a day off last June, of which I totally can't remember what I did...

I think we finished setting up around 5 pm and went to the hotel we booked Holiday Lodge...Nice place, nice food even...I'd been staying there in a few days more....Then we went to a sucky restaurant and the food was below average...Amanah Harith I think was the name...Oh well....We went back to KB after dinner and all I could think of was all the things that would await me when its my group's turn to go to UBD.

Didn't sleep soundly that night....Wonder why....

YAAAYYY!!! It's my OFF DAY TOMORROW!! For the second time in this month, I get to get my off. Seriously,work with no off is starting to pay its toll on me....I can't even remember what I did on my last off day...I know...I'm pathetic...

Today started rather slow and mellow and cold, just the way I like it....Besides, I have yet to find my sunshine to light up my life, ;), so lets just enjoy the dullness of life for now....Mushiness is so not me...LOL...Lest that person wants me to be....Heheh...

Gawd, our schizo science lab/storeroom needs major Mass Purification...And its partly my fault, because I spilled candle wax and oil all over...Yeah, I'm a bad boy..So spank me..Made my own Lava Lamp though. Not your conventional Lava Lamp you get at the store, just a simple Panadol Soluble powered Sunflower Oil/Coloured Water Lava Lamp. nad it was the fifth I made was the most successful. Made the first one with Nescafe jar, and the water kept sticking to the sides when it went up...So not what I wanted...Then the second and third was just with plastic bottles, wasn't satisfied...So I modified it and installed a fish tank bubble pump so it made 24 hour bubbles, and it worked!!!...But life isn't fair...Because if it was, I'd be in someone's lap by now listening to Innocence by Avril...*sigh*...Anyway, I turned the bubbles on too long while I was searchin for somethin to block thew hose with and it kinda emulsified the content, so the water turned into small, small droplets suspended in the clear oil and made the whole thing blue....Waaayy far from what I wanted...And just to add insult to injury, it leaked. It freakin leaked when I was on cloud nine decorating it with marbles and strings, even though its blue and so far away from what I imagined, the hose got loose and it freakin leaked. I just had to be clever and used the glue gun and freakin melted the whole thing off..Yeah...Pathetic, aren't I?

But God is All Merciful, the last one was perfect, small, but perfect...

And time was ticking me off, and just a few more hours until I have to finish everything else and get ready for the Sci & Tech week. It just narrowed down and my whole existence went hyper and hectic...Kinda finished everything off in one hour...What a miraculous day...

And now I'm sitting still here in OGDC blogging...I need the rest...Feels so much better now...Just another thing testifying to my natural writer-ness...Writing makes me feel like a burden just came off my shoulders...Though I would feel much better in someone's arms now...Oh well...Just wishful thinking...And I'm running out of things to say...I'll just take a nice, cool shower after this and sleep...

Okay then..Till next time...

Ahh...The cruel and crisp body-stabbing coldness of WYWY, it's hard-to-say-if-this-is-even-comfortable sofa-ish red chair, the sound of people bickering and snickering, the semi-nice food, the I-Am-Professional ambience...All is what it should be...Haha...

Yeah, just got back from work,went to my house for a while and changed because I spilled melted candle wax over my clothing, and now sitting in WYWY with Ali...Quite a hectic day today...My Head of Department was there, and I miraculously found everything I needed to find within the last week he was not around in just 10 minutes..Wow...

Going to UBD next week for a Sci & Tech Week...Really looking forward to this...Something to add up to the memories...:) Oh well...What a nice way to end the month..I still have things to do, and while I could be doing my work at home, I'm in a restaurant typing out my work while I drool over something and updating my Friendster...Wooh, now this is called multi-tasking...See, I *can* handle my work and social life in a good balance...

Hmm, I'm running out of words..Haha...

Till next time then...

Yeap, I'm back in the business alright, for the fifth or sixth time...Yeah, I know..I'm pathetic...Kinda forgot where my blogs were before, I think it's still in Yahoo....Oh well..

And to make this official....I declareth WYWY KB my Base of Updating;First Degree, ranking first only after OGDC, my Base of Updating;Second Wing...Wawawawawa.......Use n Abuse, peeps....I shall Rant & Ramble, as fittingly and wholly as possible in this blog...and try not to forget I even have m own blog just like the others....